The Inevitable “About Me”

Well! Where to start?

My name is Sara, I’m 27 and I come from a very small,  town in Ireland.

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Yup that’s me. Like every other woman on this planet I have had my fair share of dieting disasters, and confidence issues about my body. It makes me almost shudder when I think how many magazines I have bought to learn the slimming tricks of celebrities whilst comparing myself to them in every way. Think of the money I have spent!! I could be travelling around Europe right now. Well I’m trying a new approach, achieving a healthy, strong body while maintaining a healthy, happy mind. In other words to self-love, not self-loathe. For years, I’ve been so single-minded, focussing solely on weight loss. This has lead to a lot of success, but a lot of failure too, where my self worth was measured only by the scale. I realise now that I was neglecting other aspects of my life while repeating this vicious cycle of dieting and quitting. Now, I know the scale doesn’t matter.  I enjoy exercise and eating well for the mental and physical benefits, rather than just the visual (although the visual does help, it is now being achieved in a sustainable manner). So now is a better time than any to explore the other space in my brain and see what lurks there, now that the “diet cloud” has been lifted.

The reason I called this blog The Random Crate is because I don’t want to focus on just one aspect. I’m a crazy cat lady. I love to travel (I’m beginning to save for a Europe trip, although it looks like it will take at least two years, but better late than never. I am obsessed with Disney. No really, it’s an unhealthy fixation. I love anything vintage, and home made beauty tips. But most of all, I like to ramble on about things I’m interested in.

So, WELCOME!!!!:)

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The Importance of Being Audrey

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Watching “Funny Face”  for the first time and I have fallen absolutely in love with Audrey Hepburn again. It goes without saying that she has timeless beauty that can never be matched (unfortunately), but there is so much more to her than that. She has a quality that beams out of her. Although effortlessly elegant no matter what she does, she is utterly free with her movements. She doesn’t constantly pose and refine herself. She laughs with her whole body and portrays a joy of life.

I have read many of her quotes and I realize she is a girl after my own heart. After years of trying to mold myself into society’s idea of beauty, I finally understand that my outlook has been incredibly shallow. I was so immersed in what people might think of my appearance that I forgot about my other qualities, my personality. I think, with the influence of the media, a lot of women fall into this trap. Take a lesson from Audrey Hepburn!

“The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty of a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years.”

If only the rest of the world could learn to think like this. If only magazines promoted inner beauty and celebrated body confidence, rather than criticizing and humiliating any celebrity who dares to go out in public without makeup or for allowing her weight to fluctuate by a few pounds.

Audrey is a symbol of beauty but she is also a symbol of kindness. From 1988 she became a Goodwill Ambassador for UNICEF and this took precedence over her film career, however she is best known for her gamine looks.

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She is a true role model, and one that is very much needed in today’s society. No, I will never look like Audrey Hepburn. This wont stop me from buying a little black dress, or wearing a stripey top and pumps and hoping, against hope, for the tiniest resemblance. However, I am embracing “The Audrey Hepburn Philosophy”.  I will try to focus more on enjoying the present, than worrying about frizzy hair. I will worry less about my weight and use that head space to notice the beauty around me. And I will laugh more freely, and try not to worry about how gummy my smile is because as the lady herself says…

“The most important thing is to enjoy your life- to be happy- it’s all that matters.”

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A Small, Yet Significant, Realization

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OOOOOKAY so this is me when I was about ten pounds lighter vs. me now. I was not eating very much, I would get obsessive with exercise, mainly cardio with very little strength training. I would analyze every inch of my body in front of the mirror and wish away the imperfections. Today, I weigh more but I am stronger, healthier, and more toned. I don’t restrict my food intake, I do strength training and I have a healthy approach towards food and exercise

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This is Miranda Kerr, a Victoria Secret Model and symbol of Perfection. I would look at images of her in Magazines and beat myself up for eating that cookie (okay, those cookies) or because I only went on an hour long walk that day.

Now here comes the realization. Are you ready?… I am NEVER going to look like Miranda Kerr!!! I know, I know you are all shocked by this earth shattering new awareness, or maybe not. Now this isn’t an admission of defeat. I am not saying glue yourself to that couch and eat all the cookies you can handle. However, now that i have accepted this, I can work on myself and improve me, rather than trying to change myself into something I am not.

Why should I hate myself and feel guilty about something that I could never be? Even if I starve myself and exercise eight hours a day, I will never look like Miranda Kerr. I would have to change my bone structure and live a miserable life to keep it up. I am by no means stating that this is everybody’s story. If you naturally have a slender, toned body, or this is an achievable goal, then well done and I am really happy for you. But the point I make is that if you have a body like mine, or a very slim body, or a heavy set body, or any other type, well then be happy with that too! Why try to be a bad copy of someone else, when you can be the best version of yourself?

And so I return to the title of this Post, a small yet significant realization. I will never look like a Victoria Secret Model, but that’s fine! We strive for variety in many aspects of our lives yet try to mold ourselves into a cookie cutter idea of perfection. I will never look like Miranda Kerr, but who expects me to? I will only ever look like me and there is a certain amount of freedom in that 🙂

P.S I am in no way knocking Miranda Kerr. I use her as an example as she was my idea of perfection. She is amazing at what she does! Now, rather than putting myself down for not looking at her, I look up to her for her confidence and comfort with her body and that is my new goal. An achievable goal!